Lessons from a Near Death Experience…what I learned on the other side

Lesson #1: We plan our deaths before we are born 

What I am about to share is my subjective experience of leaving my body on the brink of death from a severe electrolyte imbalance and subsequent brain injury in 2014. I put the word “death” in quotation marks as this sacred process of transformation is anything but the end. I write with an open heart and the intention of honoring and exploring “dying” or our great expansion, liberation and most welcomed return home. Words seem to fall short when recounting spirit realm explorations, but I’ll try my best to convey the profound nature of this experience through writing.

What follows is the first of many important lessons I learned from a Near Death Experience (NDE). Thanks for your openness and receptivity, I’m grateful for the opportunity to share. And for anyone who has lost a loved one on this physical plane, I send you a big energetic hug and heartfelt condolences. I want to respect everyone’s experiences with death and acknowledge the diverse emotional states we go through when people, pets, friends or family cross over to the other side.

“What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls a butterfly. ”

— Richard Bach

Lesson #1 - We plan our deaths before we are born 

I’d been throwing up for hours from a heady combination of heat stroke and food poisoning. Not the most glamorous picture to paint but there I was, curled up on the bathroom floor clutching a waste bin, disoriented from severe dehydration and overcome with fear, anxiety and dread as I ebbed in and out of consciousness. In one last-ditch effort to control my body, I mustered all of my energy and pulled myself off the floor. As I hoisted my body up and tried to steady myself, low blood pressure and gravity got the best of me and I collapsed, twisting as I fell and hitting my head on the corner of the bathroom counter. 

I was knocked out cold, or so I thought. My body’s innate drive toward survival mounted one final surge of adrenaline, sparking my electrical system back on and waking me up. In a panicked and confused state, I frantically scooted myself backward along the floor until I felt my spine hit the wall. I gasped for one last breath as my head slumped forward. The next thing I knew, I had popped right out of my body and was observing the scene from above. 

There I was, feeling as normal and peaceful as could be in my spirit form, floating above the physical body I called Morgan. There was no pain, fear, confusion or worry, just the most natural feeling of lightness, tranquility and expansion. I continued to view the drama below as if watching a movie. I was curious what would happen next but also detached from it all, completely aware that I wasn’t that body. I watched as paramedics entered the bathroom and lifted the body onto a gurney. In a graphic exorcism-like scene, the eyes rolled back in the head, neon green vomit projected from the body and the arms flailed about wildly with the chaotic firing of nerve impulses, like a chicken running around with its head cut off. 

I followed along in the ambulance ride to the hospital and remained with the body as it was shuffled from room to room for various medical tests. The repetitive beeping and flashing lights of monitors permeated the dark hospital room. I then began to feel a physical pull and inner-knowing that there was somewhere else I needed to be. As Morgan’s body slipped into a deep coma state, I took off for the ride of a lifetime. 

I found myself engulfed by the most beautiful blackness. A void unlike anything I’d ever experienced as a human. I was surrounded by a blissful feeling of comfort and unconditional love. I continued to float and journey along through this divine darkness with no sense of time or physical limitations of any kind. I was the darkness and the darkness was me, there was no separation. There were no boundaries, judgements or cares, no past or future, everything was taking place all at once. 

Eventually I was met and welcomed by a familiar and incredibly loving group of soul-family members and three light beings which I recognized as my spirit guides. They greeted me telepathically with great excitement but also a bit of confusion. They were happy I was there but shocked to see me back, as this wasn’t the time I’d planned to die and return home to the spirit realm.  

In many NDE accounts, you’ll hear about “life-reviews” where individuals are shown past events from their life (experiencing their own emotional states and also the feelings of the other people involved). In my case, I was gifted a “future-review”, so I could re-visit the soul plans I had written for myself as Morgan and be reminded of what was yet to come (if I decided to return to the unconscious body in the ICU).  

This future-review was far from a walk in the park. The path of coming back into an injured body, with a long and arduous healing journey ahead, was not an easy one. I felt all of the pain, isolation, hopelessness, depression and struggle that would be faced. I also experienced the powerful healing, love, support and soul-growth that would take place. One of the highlights of my future-review was reconnecting with my primary soul mate. I had yet to meet him in my life as Morgan but would align with him 8 years later, in the most synchronistic of ways. The remembrance of this potent love and divine partnership awaiting me on the other side of the struggles, was a significant catalyst in my decision. I’ll share more about this spirit-guided love story in a separate blog post! 

After viewing my future as Morgan, I was given two choices. Option one was returning to the physical body to play out a long and difficult recovery from a brain injury and associated health challenges. The journey would be trying but also hold opportunities to fulfill contracts and plans I had made for myself and others for this lifetime. Option two was remaining in the blissful state of spirit and accepting that life as Morgan was a wrap. 

The choice was mine to make. There was a strong desire to stay in this space of absolute serenity, joy and love. I was deeply torn, but knew that in this place of perfection, opportunities for growth were limited. I also understood that in the detailed blueprint of my life as Morgan, this was not when I had planned to die. I felt that my job on earth was not yet done. And since you’re here reading these words, I’m sure you can guess which option I picked! 

Reflecting on that decision still stirs great emotion and visceral reactions in my system. My body shakes, nausea arises and I am overcome with tears remembering the weight of that choice. This decision to come to earth is one we’ve all made. Which offers a perfect segue, to take a moment to recognize yourself and every other soul that decides to incarnate as a human. That profound choice takes great bravery, courage, strength, resolve and an adventurous spirit no doubt. So give yourself a big pat on the back and an enthusiastic high-five! As humans, we share the experience of leaving our true home and divine state of expansion and love to enter a dense 3D environment, constrained by a physical body and a challenging earth school curriculum. United we are in this unique and profound chance for soul-evolution (whether we consciously remember it or not). Nice to know we’re all in it together! You’re doing an amazing job :)

When I came back into the body of Morgan, I woke up in a hospital bed surrounded by friends and family. I was a bit bruised and battered but ultimately felt pretty blissed out. My body had been “unconscious” in the ICU for several days but it felt like I’d been gone for years and paradoxically in the most consciously expanded state of my life. Upon returning to earth, the details of my NDE quickly dissipated. Flashbacks from the experience would pop up here and there, but I honestly thought I was going crazy and was worried about what others would think, so continued to suppress the memories. I tried going back to my normal life and prior relationships, job and hobbies as if nothing had happened. But having been on the other side of the veil, viewing my future and experiencing a third-eye awakening brain injury, nothing could ever be the same.

Life after dying was a complete unraveling. First of my emotional state and physical body. Next of my ability to function as a “normal” person in the world as I’d become incredibly sensitive to energy and connected to the spirit realms in a new and overwhelming way. And finally, with the shattering of my paradigms as my previous views about the world no longer held true, and the harsh reality of living with a brain injury quickly set in. My understanding of what we call “life” and “death” shifted completely and I struggled to integrate this new awareness. At the time, I’d never heard the term “Near Death Experience” and wasn’t hip to spirituality. I found myself confused, in a chronically stressed state and unsure of where to turn for support. To top it off, I held a deep unshakable sense of heartache, sadness and loss from leaving the expansive state of spirit and returning to the density of earth. I couldn’t understand why I felt so heavy in my heart and soul, which led to deep depression, isolation and fantasizing about leaving my life as Morgan and wanting to cross back over to the other side.

As the years went by, memories from my NDE began to flood back in, bringing with them important lessons to re-learn. One lesson in particular brought me great solace during some of my darkest times. I found comfort in knowing that each one of us plans our death and sets a personal expiration date for our physical body. Your death, just as our life, is planned by you and for you from an elevated soul-level perspective. All aspects of your passing are predetermined while in spirit form. Upon incarnating on earth, you agree to forget the elaborate plans you designed for your birth, death and everything in between by adopting amnesia, so you can learn, grow and heal along the way. Imagine how boring and predictable life would be if you already knew what was going to happen. Where would the fun and soul-growth be in that?

As Dr. Scott Robinson explains, as you plan the timing of your birth, so too do you set a departure date. In theory this return ticket is built into your genetic matrix in the form of something called an “Engram”, a genetically placed tag or a timer trigger mechanism.

You leave your physical body and transform back into infinite energy at exactly the right time. There is no “dying” because there is no end. Your consciousness simply alters form and continues on in its eternal expression. There is no dying early or late and there are no mistakes. This raises the question, what about accidents and tragedies, such as children who die young, suicides, war, miscarriages, murders, natural disasters and genocide? As humans, we tend to assign meanings or judgements to these events. Yet no matter how tragic, devastating, evil, unfair or untimely we perceive something to be, ultimately there’s a higher level purpose and soul plan at play. Everything is divinely orchestrated and is not for us to ascribe meaning to or even understand from our limited sensory perception as humans. Luckily, we don’t have to comprehend these bewildering things and we’re not supposed to.

I believe our job is to recognize and respect the unique plans each soul or group of souls makes for their personal evolution during this earth school adventure (including their death). We are also here to feel the full range of emotions in life and in death (as each emotional experience serves to expand the Akashic field/consciousness). Alongside honoring our emotional expressions, we can accept that there’s much more at play than we can fathom, and choose to trust that everything is just as it’s supposed to be, always. All will be revealed and understood when we transform back into spirit, like waking up from a dream and remembering all of it! 

I continue to find profound comfort and reassurance knowing that things are planned with the intention of soul-level growth. This understanding helps me release any doubts and desires to judge or control life or death for myself or others. The experience of leaving my body and crossing over taught me that death is not what we think it is, and is absolutely nothing to fear. In my opinion, death is to be revered, honored and joyously anticipated as the most glorious expansion we all get to experience. 

Death, or “entering the theater of change” as my Emin friends like to say, is a great liberation, a blissful return to our true state and connection to the source from which we individuate. In releasing the fear of dying, we can also release the fear of living. Death is something you’ve done many times before and will likely get the sacred opportunity to do many times again. We are all infinite beings of light, eternal and ever-expanding, always learning, growing, healing and evolving, preparing to return home to the void, where everything is held and all is perfection and possibility. In that great emptiness, we are content, surrounded by the purest form of indescribable love…and as full as can be.

~Morgan Kelly Jean

And before you go, the often taboo topic of DEATH wants to engage in a loving and exploratory way. Grab a piece of paper and pen and keep on scrolling. You won’t want to miss this opportunity to learn more about yourself and your relationship with the transformative process of dying.

Take a few deep breaths and imagine your heart softening and opening. Using the prompts below for inspiration, write whatever wants to come through without judging or censoring.

-When you say the word DEATH, how do you feel? What do you notice in your body?

Focusing on your own personal “death”...

-What do you want the experience of “dying” to be like? 

-How do you want to feel?

-Where do you want to be? 

-Who do you want to be with? 

-What do you notice about the environment surrounding you? What do you see, smell, hear and sense?

-What do you want to experience after you “die” and leave your physical body?

-After you transition, how would you like your life to commemorated and celebrated by those still here on earth?

-How does taking this time to write about “death” make you feel? 

Of course there are no right or wrong answers, just an opportunity to reflect and explore. And if you feel called, share this exercise with your partner or a family member or friend and have a chat about what came up.

Thanks for taking the extra time to engage with death, a subject that is often neglected or viewed as too sad, heavy or personal to talk about openly. In making the topic of death a regular part of our lived experience, we can release and transmute fear, shift our conditioned beliefs, connect more deeply with others and encourage curiosity, openness and wonder around this inevitable yet truly beautiful process built into the game of life.

“Death is the ultimate learning experience, where you will remember everything you have forgotten. Death is not death at all and Life is not life, you humans have it all turned around.”

— Dr. Scott Robinson

A life changing sign…

Hey there Subscriber First Name, wanna hear a crazy story? It's equal parts personal and mystical and it all began when I met my spirit guide Bert! And as you read through, enjoy a powerful frequency upgrade (infused within these words) and a fun activity at the end. 

Flashback to 7 years ago, I was a hot mess health-wise and after seeing countless doctors and specialists and trying every protocol under the sun, I found myself spiraling deeper into dysregulation and disillusionment. I finally decided to flip the script and go see a spiritual healer I’d heard on a "random" podcast who just happened to be in my area.

This was my first experience with anything metaphysical, yet when the healer started talking about soul families, the afterlife and the holy monad, I felt right at home. While I received Energy Work, the practitioner explained that I had a spirit guide named Bert who was sitting at my side offering support and comic relief. I left the appointment feeling expansive, hopeful and more connected than I had in years. Part of my spiritual homework post-appointment was to engage with my guide Bert. I still wasn’t entirely convinced of his presence so I decided to write him a letter and ask him for a physical sign.

By the end of the week, I was feeling down in the dumps again. The post-appointment glow had faded, my symptoms had flared and I had all but forgotten about my letter to Bert. The cold dreary Seattle weather matched my mood but I was determined to get out for a walk. Instead of going on my usual neighborhood stroll, I felt called to venture across town to an unlikely park.

I was anxious, depressed, stressed out and questioning everything in my life. I walked aimlessly along the winding cement path, rain drops and tears streaming down my face. Across the park, a massive oak tree caught my eye. The tree was much further away than I felt comfortable walking due to POTS episodes and the fear of not being able to get back to my car. Just as I was about to turn around and head home, some unseen force offered me a boost of courage and extra physical bandwidth to keep going.

As I approached the tree, I saw a big mound of dirt piled up around its trunk with the tiniest speck of white popping out. Although I was hesitant to bend down for the risk of falling, that same undeniable presence urged me forward. Before I knew it, I was on the ground digging away. To my absolute surprise and delight, I literally dug up the exact 'sign' I had requested from Bert!

In my letter to Bert, written just a few days before, I had asked him “to show me a unicorn please”, and there she was! In the most unsuspecting of places, on one of my darkest days, this gorgeous gem encrusted plastic unicorn with a beautiful flowing rainbow mane and tail, graced my life and changed me forever!

I looked around to see if there were any kids who might have left the unicorn behind, but there was no one in sight. I knew deep in my heart that I was meant to take her home with me. I cleaned her up and named her Crystal.

This sacred sign from my spirit guide was just the reassurance I needed to trust that I wasn’t alone, that I had Bert on my side, that there was abundant wonder and hope to connect with and that something much larger was at play. I was grateful to work with Crystal’s energy for several years and over that time she became a dear friend, healing support and unwavering reminder of spirit. I’d often pop her in my backpack and bring her along to medical appointments and park outings.

Funny enough, the last day I spent with Crystal was a photo-shoot for my Distance Energy Healing website. We had a blast and captured some silly pics. When I got home after the shoot, I realized Crystal was nowhere to be found. My initial upset was soon replaced by a higher-level understanding…there was no coincidence that Crystal got left behind that day, and in my mind’s eye, I saw her galloping away on a glorious mission to help others.

Several months later, a Shamanic reading revealed that my personal “Power Animal” (the animal spirit that was present at my birth and continues to support me energetically) was the unicorn! This brought me great joy and helped affirm that as infinite beings of light, we don't need to attach ourselves to physical possessions…for energy cannot be destroyed and we’re always connected to the people and beings we love.

I share this story as a reminder of how powerful spirit truly is...for spirit is what we truly are. And sometimes, a sign from the “unseen” is the most welcome medicine we can receive. I continue to find great comfort in knowing that we’re always guided, loved and cherished, that we’re never alone and that magic truly abounds. How cool that we get to receive signs from our spirit teams and loved ones passed as we navigate these dynamic human lives!

Ready to ask your guides for a sign?!

Step 1. Ask Away ~ remember there's no right or wrong way to connect with spirit, so simply follow your intuition. You can write a letter or speak out-loud or in your head. 

Ask your guide, spirit team, guardian angel or a passed loved one (human or animal) to show you a physical sign of their presence. Request something that is quite unique, specific or unexpected so that you will easily recognize it as a sign from spirit.

Step 2. Surrender ~ and trust that the universe will show you the sign when the time is just right. As much as you can, remain patient, excited and ultra-delighted when it arrives!

Step 3. Spirit Journal ~ jot down all of the sacred synchronicities, crazy coincidences, magical moments, revelations and any physical signs that manifest in a designated journal or notes section on your phone. By recounting these spirit interactions and referencing them often, you help entrain your systems to higher-vibrational frequencies which then help you attract even more sacred encounters!

Sending smiles, ~Morgan Kelly Jean :)

P.S. “Surviving Death”, a wonder-full series on Netflix features a deeply touching episode called “Signs from the Dead” which explores this topic even more (spirit shivers and tears likely)! Feel free to email me when your sign arrives if you’d like to share the juicy spirit deets. I figure the more we chat about these experiences, the richer life becomes.

connect@morgankellyjean.com

A Special Spring Equinox Ritual

With the spring season about to pop on Friday March 20th, I wanted to share one of my favorite rituals for this energetically potent time of year. As you engage with these words and images, know that you’re also soaking up a fresh frequency infusion!

Around the equinox and duality of seasons (spring in the Northern Hemisphere and fall in the Southern Hemisphere) there’s a magical uptick in earth’s radiation. Spring is also associated with the color green and the elevated energy of renewal, creation and growth.

To quote one of my favorite bands, let’s get to “Sowing The Seeds Of Love” and harness the powerful vibrations of spring!

Step 1. On a scrap of paper (extra props if you use the plantable seed variety), write down one quality, essence or characteristic you’d like to grow more of this spring (for example abundance, health, joy, presence, self-love, creativity, curiosity, intuition).

Step 2. Find a house plant, garden patch, tree or grassy area where you can dig a small hole. In the hole, place your written intention and sprinkle some corn meal, several corn kernels, a bit of tobacco or any kind of offering you feel inclined to share with Mama Gaia.

Say out loud…“I ________(insert your name) plant the seeds of _________ (insert your intention). I’m excited for the radiant expansion of this essence in support of my highest good, and so it is!”

Step 3. Cover the hole back up with dirt and express appreciation for earth’s amazing altruism and alchemy! Spend a few minutes each day feeling gratitude as if your intention is already your reality.

Step 4. In 4 weeks time (mark your calendar), your seeds of intention will be blossoming. Reflect on all the magical shifts that have occurred and enjoy the personal enrichment!

This spring, I’m planting the seeds of incredible health! How about you? What intention are you sowing? Hit reply if you feel called to share.

P.S. How cool are these…a pencil and note cards that contain an assortment of wild flower seeds you can actually plant after using. They have eye-liner pencils as well! Sending smiles :) Morgan Kelly Jean

The back of the heart chakra and what old souls are here to learn

if you're reading this email, you're likely an old soul who’s been around the earth-block more than a few times! As an experienced spirit, you've probably already mastered the skill of being a kind, generous and compassionate person who truly wants the best for all. I bet you have a big beautiful heart and caring for others is one of your many super-powers!

Empaths, sensitives and old souls are experts are dishing out the love and supporting others, yet sometimes struggle receiving energy back or giving as much love to themselves. One of the important reasons why older souls return to earth school is to learn how to receive, how to embody deeper levels of self-love and how to fill-up their own cups so they’re overflowing with the most glorious rainbow sparkle elixir that creates waves of positive change across space and time…while being awesome examples for others!

With Valentine's Day coming up this weekend, let’s practice some SELF-LOVE and chat about the heart chakra, especially the backside of this powerful energy vortex which is all about RECEIVING.

And a loving reminder that this email contains an energy upgrade for your heart chakra and a radiant dose of Reiki. To enhance the impact, imagine a beautiful emerald green beam of light flowing continuously into the back of your heart. And read all the way to the end to soak up the full frequency infusion!

The heart chakra (or Anahata in Sanskrit) is a swirling ball of deep green energy often associated with the heart, lungs, thymus gland, breasts, rib-cage, hands and elbows. Unlike the other main charkas that measure around 2.5 inches in diameter, the heart charka (especially in old souls and empaths), can be massive and actually fill up the entire chest cavity (no wonder we feel so much)! Interestingly, the backside of the heart chakra is meant to take in more energy than any other area of the physical body.

Signs of a balanced heart charka include feeling connected to the world at large, healthy relationships, loving freely while honoring oneself, setting healthy boundaries, self-acceptance and appreciation, feeling the energy of unconditional love, having the ability to forgive and enjoying a sense of peace.

A block, leak or imbalance in the heart chakra can manifest as difficulty trusting or opening up, holding grudges or replaying past hurts, people-pleasing, poor boundaries, over-giving or loosing oneself in others, feeling unworthy, avoiding help, staying in unhealthy relationships or attracting narcissists, feeling isolated, resentful or having physical ailments related to the heart or lungs, such as tightness in the chest, circulation problems, tension in the neck or shoulders, irregular heart beat or shallow breathing. 

Below are some fun, unique and deeply nourishing ways to support your heart chakra and practice receiving high-vibrational energy on Valentine's Day and beyond! 

~ Feel The Love ~ Sit with your dog or cat or think about your kids, your favorite tree or a friend that you love dearly. As you feel a deep sense of love and appreciation for that animal, person or tree, reflect back that same level of emotional love to yourself. Hold this high vibrational energy of self-love in your system for as long as you can. Sense your heart and entire auric field filling up with this expansive frequency.

~Loving touch ~ spend a few minutes lovingly stroking your arm, hand, belly, face, neck or head while thanking your body for all its magic! 

~ Be Your Own Secret Admirer ~ write a love letter or valentine to yourself and read it out-loud while lovingly gazing in the mirror. Keep this letter on hand to reference next time you're having a rough day or need some extra support.

~ Suck It Up ~ the next time you receive a nice email or text, or a compliment, gift, praise, spirit synchronicity or even a smile from a stranger, take a moment to pause and imagine that beautiful energy of recognition flowing into the back of your heart. Pulling in energy through the back of your heart chakra helps wake up your receptivity sensors and trains your system to remain open to all the good vibes the universe wants to send your way!

~ Anoint Your Heart ~ lovingly dab some honey on your heart and leave it there for 5-15 minutes as you get ready for your day, rest, meditate or send supportive energy to yourself. You can then wash it off or rub it in. This is a powerful Shamanic practice that integrates the potent bee medicine which is all about higher-love, community and the greatest good for the whole.

~ Take A Compliment Shower ~ spend 3-5 minutes showering yourself with verbal compliments and praise. Do this out-loud as the frequency of your own voice moving through your throat charka is incredibly powerful and your subconscious is always listening. Be as expressive, playful, sincere or silly as you like.

~ Cacao ~ sip a ceremonial dose of cacao or enjoy any-kind of chocolate (the darker and less processed the better)

~ Crystal Care ~ assemble a LOVE altar with any do-dads you adore or spend time hanging out with your favorite gem friends. Rose Quartz, Prehnite, Pink Lemurian Quartz, Chrysoprase, Moldavite and Botswana Agate are a few of my favorites for supporting the heart, but feel free to use whichever crystals you resonate with most.

~ Tea Time ~ make a lovely cup of rose tea (or your favorite brew). Hold the mug close to your heart and speak words of love into the liquid. Sip slowly and intentionally as you soak up the beautiful energies for a heart-expanding experience. 

~ What If ~ write and recite some positive "What If" quest-ions about self-love, your heart or love in general. Below are a few examples to use or you can create your own! What if my heart is open to receiving all the love and magic the universe has to share? What if love flows to me in avalanches of abundance? What if I honor, cherish and adore myself? What if I pour as much love into myself as I do into others? What if I look for love and find it everywhere? What if I love and accept myself?

If the thought of loving yourself feels uncomfortable or kicks up any resistance, that’s a great sign to lean in more and drink down an extra dose! If you worry that all this self-adoration might turn into arrogance or pretense, rest assured that old souls aren’t easily wrapped up in self-centeredness. And more importantly, remember that the universe truly loves everyone and everything (including you) unconditionally...so when you step into the powerful vibration of self-love, you not only align with source consciousness, but you also bring more energy to your upper chakras, allowing your aura to blossom and expand in all of its brilliance!

And just a fun side-note, I recently wrapped up an amazing course by Marie Manuchehri. I’m still buzzing from her beautiful teachings which inspired this email. I’d highly recommend her 8 week online class, "A Deep Dive into the Essence of Self Love”.

Sending smiles and emerald green heart blissings from the "Emerald City".

~Morgan Kelly Jean :)

P.S. If you’re ready to love up on your heart chakra, schedule a Distance Energy Healing Session today! Hit reply to this email and share one thing you love about yourself.